LUCKY

Do you hear me,
Talking to you
Across the water across the deep blue ocean
Under the open sky, oh my, baby I'm trying

Boy I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard

Lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again

They don't know how long it takes
Waiting for a love like this
Every time we say goodbye
I wish we had one more kiss
I'll wait for you I promise you, I will

Lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

And so I'm sailing through the sea
To an island where we'll meet
You'll hear the music fill the air
I'll put a flower in your hair

though the breezes through trees
Move so pretty you're all I see
As the world keeps spinning round
You hold me right here right now

Lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again
Lucky we're in love every way
Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed
Lucky to be coming home someday

cigarettes and chocolate milk

cigarettes and chocolate milk
these are just a couple of my cravings
everything it seems i like's a little bit stronger
a little bit thicker
a little bit harmful for me

if i should buy jellybeans
have to eat them all in just one sitting
everything it seems i like's a little bit sweeter
a little bit fatter
a little bit harmful for me

and then there's those other things
which for several reasons we won't mention
everything about them is a little bit stranger
a little bit harder
a little bit deadly

it isn't very smart
tends to make one part so broken-hearted

sitting here remembering me
always been a shoe made for the city
go ahead, accuse me of just singing about places
with scrappy boys faces
have general run of the town
playing with prodigal songs
takes a lot of sentimental valiums
can't expect the world to be your raggedy andy
while running on empty
you little old doll with a frown

you got to keep in the game
maintaining mystique while facing forward
i suggest a reading of 'a lesson in tightropes'
or 'surfing your high hopes' or 'adios kansas'

it isn't very smart
tends to make one part so broken-hearted

still there's not a show on my back
holes or a friendly intervention
i'm just a little bit heiress, a little bit irish
a little bit tower of pisa whenever i see you
so please be kind if i'm a mess
cigarettes and chocolate milk

angers

it makes me feel like running in the midst of darkness

it makes me feel like downing pots of black dog

it makes me feel like i can't feel

it makes me feel like i am super

it makes me feel mute

it makes me feel like i want to strangle you until you choke and ask for forgiveness and i leave you alone to gasp for air and that's it

it makes me want to see you suffer worse than i do and i know you won't and i will end up feeling worse and in the end i just want to walk away

it makes me want to pierce every inch of my skin to remind me that it is not worth it to be mad

it makes me want to tear out every pieces of imperfection that is actually perfect

it makes me realize it is just not worth it

restless

i can't rest well knowing things are beyond control

i can't rest well having to try and swallow my beliefs and letting go of my pride

i can't rest well knowing i can't trust more than i could have

i can't rest well knowing i am being too convenient

i can't rest well feeling left out

i can't rest well being pissed off

i can't rest well being myself but having to live in a mirror

i can't rest well not able to do anything that could help at the moment

i can't rest well having to sit and wait

i can't rest well not trying to force it

i can't rest well thinking of things to think

i can't rest well because i see thoughtlessness

i just can't rest well

nagging agitation

Same as wax on your hands.
Same as dried soap on your elbow.
Same as stains on your leather.
Same as eyelash in your eye.
Same as fake authority.
Same as naive ignorance of deliberate projection of image.
Same as running on near-empty tank on the highway.
Same as trying to fry and egg using water.
Same as setting boundaries to air.
Same as delusional focus.
Same as going too far in the wrong direction.
Same as looking similar to a primate.
Same as blowing own horn while deaf.
Same as ...
Same as a weird conspiracy.

Fever in my brain

Temperature 37 C .Nothing's wrong.

But head feels hot.

Is my brain on high temperature?

Burning with dissatisfaction.Or imperfection.

HAHA

PINK MARTINI

"Hang On Little Tomato"
The sun has left and forgotten me
It's dark, I cannot see
Why does this rain pour down
I'm gonna drownIn a sea
Of deep confusion

Somebody told me,
I don't know who
Whenever you are sad and blue
And you're feelin' all alone and left behind
Just take a look inside and you will find

You gotta hold on, hold on through the night
Hang on, things will be all right
Even when it's dark
And not a bit of sparkling
Sing-song sunshine from above
Spreading rays of sunny love

Just hang on, hang on to the vine
Stay on, soon you'll be divine
If you start to cry, look up to the sky
Something's coming up ahead
To turn your tears to dew instead

And so I hold on to his advice
When change is hard and not so nice
You listen to your heart the whole night through
Your sunny someday will come one day soon to you